Security...Compromised

Insecurity: The anxiety you experience when you feel vulnerable and insecure

anxiety - a vague unpleasant emotion that is experienced in anticipation of some (usually ill-defined) misfortune

Insecurity is probably one of the biggest problems that teen girls face and although it is more of a mental/emotional problem and doesn’t seem as dangerous as drugs, or say alchol, it is tearing apart young girls in our generation.

You may be listening to this and thinking “Well, I’m the only one who faces it. There are so many girls that have it all together and they don’t face it.” But in reality, all girls go through it. No matter how old you are, no matter who you are, no matter what you wear or who you talk to, everyone faces it. You just have to know that you aren’t alone.

I can honestly say that I faced insecurity. It held me back and didn’t allow me to be myself. I was so stuck on wanting to fit in and be like evrybody else that I was wearing a mask. My mask was hiding my Christianity, it was hiding how I truly felt about situations, and it was hiding everything my parents has raised up their little girl to become. I was so focused on what people thought of me that my mask began to become a part of me and to be honest, I wasn’t ready to let it go.

At one point I was so angry at the way I looked, I hated everything about me, my nose was too big, my skin was horrible and my hair was too short for my face and no matter how hard I tries I couldn’t seem to find any good or pretty part of me. People would always tell me things like, “oh you look so pretty today” or “I like your hair” but because of my insecurity I would just say “No” I would tear down any compliment I recieved because I truly didn’t believe it.

I had to really pray through my insecurity because it was controlling my life and I wouldn’t see the real Timmerie in the mirror, I would just see a mask, a person who wasn’t me. I also saw a very sad girl who just wanted to pull her life back together. One of my kids church leaders at the time gave me a sheet of paper with about 50 verses on it talking about how much God loved me and that was my breaking point. I realized what my insecurity was doing to me and decided that in order to live out everything God has for me I had to see myself the way he sees me, a beautiful girl who he is so proud of and loves so much. I honestly don’t know where I would be at this point if I hadn’t trusted God to help me through it because without him, without him my life would be nothing but empty.